I should have known when I saw heavy equipment there the day before. In a way. I wasn’t surprised when I approached the corner this morning through rain and traffic to find signs blocking it off. Knowing the right way to go around, avoiding backed up rain, was handy; having time to do it was better.

Back at it, thinking about what’s not breaking, checking to see what might break, trying to feel some type of way about what’s already broken or just on the brink. What can be fixed: the blocked off lanes, the curb outside the ransacked restaurant, the vehicles with flashing hazards, their drivers?

Any memories I have of this stretch of the avenue are most likely properly rated by now, more than two years after moving away and three years after last working just down the block for four years. I’ve had just enough of it not to dream and to hold me now that I’m onto other stretches and avenues.

There’s no way to rest but to rest. Be still, stay home, spend time puttering with the broom, with lunch or with the cat or with the sun briefly warming up the room around you. Let the snacks set aside do their thing, drink the broth if it should appear, and get in the bed at a reasonable hour.

All day, I shrugged off signs: the backpack coffee spill; the unexpected metering lights; the warm sun falling to ward off the midday chill. I showed up, and I was going to power through. My mistake was treating the day and everything else that way. But it’s over now; no making that mistake again!

On my morning horizon, a building towers, partly empty, over even emptier air and water vapor. From my building, mostly emptier and definitely closer to the ground, forces like light and warmth gather in the east, dragging their heels before meeting the hour’s obligations and the moment’s demands.

I can be willful but I don’t act it all that often unless drawn out, intrigued or challenged. It’s funny that I have to do so in particular ways in particular platforms (once today by surprise, and once again for the next lengthy period) to get things done. I’m just glad that doable’s approachable.

What will have the sky socked in tomorrow, with the highway lanes aglow with red lamps downshifting into gray? That’ll be fog coming in riding the dew point over the waves and onto our side of the bay. And that’ll be all of us gliding through chilly darkness, lacking neither company nor soundtrack.

I don’t root for the darkness. It’s true that autumn’s my favorite of the seasons. I watch for new moons, and there’ll be one in a couple of days, with a bit more than a week to go before the solstice. I know that it’s December. Maybe it all makes others’ lighting choices glow that much more warmly.

Back home, letting sunlight swing around and fill the living room with heat to liquidify a coconut oil jar’s contents, but still open the patio sliding door to let out a few flies. I let the cat know I missed her perching within reach and soaking up tributes. She’s tolerant, and seems not to mind.